Okay so sooo much is happining now, I don't know how to prosess it all. First off, exsausted takes a new meaning, is given a new definition in my, right now. Yea. School started today, it was the same old boring "rules, consequences, materials needed, tardy and grading polocies, and blah blah blah" that it is every year. It was a pain. I am so tired and so ug. Seminary was okay, not bad at all, but it sort of seemed like he was doing the same stuff the other teachers were. lol.
Second off...my mom. the other night her chest started to hurt and her left arm started to go numb, after she calmed down and got a blessing at the Bishop's house, she was seemingly fine, but she went to see her ciropracter today, who just so happens to be my seminary teacher, and he said he definantly thinks she had a hard attack. I am sooo scared! My birth mom died almost 6 years ago from heart problems, and I just don't know what to do! I don't even what to think about what her having a small mild heart attack could mean!!!! I am crying even as I type this but I just have to get it all out. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say to her to make this better, and I wish I could just make it ALL go away again! All of it. All of it. I wish I could just make her feel better and idk...but I feel so helpless and inadequate!!!! I don't know what to do, and I am so scared, and she is scared to. She said so. Multiple times today. I don't know how to help her. I am so scared and it hurts just to think about this stuff. I couldn't bear loosing her. I want her to be careful and not go to work till she can see the Dr. But she says she can't. I don't even have adequate words to describe how I feel right now. No words.
3rd off, my classes went okay, and I am pretty excited to see what the new year brings. Can't wait. But I can. Its so confusing and there really are no adequate words. I need to go mark this year's scripture masteries, and probably take a nap, I will see you later.